“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.” — Proverbs 3:5-6 NKJV
There are times when I question my position in this life of mine. I wonder if my past mistakes disqualifies me from being a virtuous woman today. I wonder if I will ever measure up to the standards set by the phenomenal women who came before me.
After writing my last post, I found myself wondering if I am qualified enough to deliver these words. As I was contemplating this, I heard in my spirit, “Trust in the Lord with all of your heart, and lean not on your own understanding, but in all of your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your path.” At that point, I felt a surge of confidence in knowing that I am doing exactly what God would have me to do.
When I was in the 5th grade, my teacher gave me an assignment. She told me to write a book for a program called Reader’s Round Up. I was ecstatic, I immediately went to work. I turned in several notebook pages of a story that I had penned for submission. She looked at me perplexed and never said another word.
Years later, I found myself watching a program called, Reader’s Round Up with my kids. I burst out into laughter as I watched the little kids read their books on the show. There’s were picture books; little, cute, and succinct. None of those descriptives fit the bill of the project I turned in.
Back in 2010, I was given the vision of a Proverbs 31 Women’s ministry. I had just come across that scripture and I wanted to create a devotional dedicated to women. I began researching the idea, and I saw that there was already a group of women doing what I envisioned myself doing. So, I disqualified myself from that pursuit.
Recently, I have been going through a health crisis of my own. I’ve questioned rather it is too late for me to even begin the vision that is in my heart. A vision that has been simmering for years now. I love writing, it’s what I am naturally gifted at. A gift from God. It is not too late.